January 10, 2009

Hats, Health, Hard Cash and other things that don't begin with H

Midterms are coming up next week, which means I've been delaying studying as long as possible. AP Art history is completely overwhelming, and while I like the idea of the class, the class itself is incredibly difficult and even tedious at times.

I've also been sick all week. I've felt horrible: very tiered, weak, and irritable. I've been trying to cut out meat where I can, but as someone who occasionally suffers from low blood sugar this might not be something I can actually do. We learned about the effects of meat on the environment, so I thought that I would do my part and just not eat it where I could, but I really do need the protein.

I'm also feeling very stressed out about money. While my housing and meals at home are paid for, my parents give me a certain amount of money to cover everything else in a sort of annual allowance. I just bought two very expensive things: a winter coat and a dress for my school's semiformal. I also went outlet shopping with my mom and bought some shoes and bras. While coat and bras were necessities the dress and shoes were not, and I feel bad spending so much money on things I don't necessarily need. I did get some money for Chanukah, but I still feel guilty spending so much.

My mom doesn't have any money anymore, as a working artist, and a divorcee, so I feel especially bad spending money when she can't. I love everything I bought and I'll wear it all multiple times, I just feel guilty. After I pay for the alterations for the dress I'm not going to buy anything else until I need spring clothing, and after i turn 18 in March I'm going to get a job so that I don't feel as badly for splurging on myself.

So, on a semi related note, my dad gave me a hat (which means it was free!). I really like it but I'm not sure where I can wear it. I think it looks good, but it's not necessarily a style thats fashionable at the moment, not that that matters, but still.

So, I guess this is sort of my first fashion post? So, expect more and better posts in the future

1 comment:

TuesdayPillow said...

Guilt is part of the Jewish tradition - don't let it eat you up :) I remember being poor in school ... and worrying about money, and then realized that worrying about it doesn't make it sprout out of the ground. Too bad, methinks.